relax, relapse

saturday, august 16, 2008

I know I said that I AM comming back, and I really have been trying harder than you can imagine to make myself do so, but I am quitting web-design. Yeah..."gasp!, cries!, no!, stay!, blah blah blah". I just don't see the point anymore. The only reason I do it at all is to talk to people like Lena, Amanda and Alanah, and others I don't feel like linking right now 'cause I'm lazy. And I can do that without a site. I used to really love web-design, but now it's just no fun anymore. I used to be able to sit down on my computer for hours straight and do nothing but work on a layout. And I would always get new ideas for things, and I would sit down and put them all together and keep them on my freewebs just in case I wanted to use them. I had like 4278297029487 unused layouts on my freewebs, but I deleted them all. But now I can't do that anymore. Working with codes is just so boring now. And that's the only thing I can ever grow in. I can't download anything on this freaking computer with my dad over-watching everything. I can't even keep any kind of pictures on here. So I'm never going to get any kind of photo shopping program to make graphics. I can't grow in graphics. I can't get a domain, because my parents don't know anything about my making of websites and it's going to stay like that, and I can't win a free one because it's all based on hits. You either need lots of hits so you can bring lots of hits to the site of the person giving away the domain, or you get lots of hits because people see your URL when they vote for you and visit your site. I don't want hits, because hits mean more annoying comments to get stressed over. I can't grow in the sense of moving up a level in the web-world. But I can grow in coding. There's so much I could learn about that. But I HATE it now. And then there's a bunch of personal reasons why I'd be better off without a site that I'm not even going to get into. But basically, I REALLY NEED to focus on my school work a lot more, and I have absolutely no real life outside of the Internet. Which is not healthy, mentally and physically. So, yup. I'm quitting. Bye. Sorry.